Say a little prayer for me?

Well it is official. I put in my two weeks notice, now I just have to get another job before the 14th or I have to withdraw it. Please cross your fingers for me cause I am really worried I won't find something better. I put in about 10 applications to the local school districts around here so if I get one of them I will be a TA, or something similar. I am also thinking about going to a place called Kelly Services to apply there to be a substitute teacher. I am so grateful that I have a helping hand in my search, I have been connected with a teacher who is going to put in a good word for me at least at her school. I just hope it will work out. My friends Skye and Lynette brought it to my mind again about how much I love kids and how great I would be working with kids. I used to work at an after school program while I was in High School and it was a lot of fun. It taught me a lot about kids and it helped me become a better person. I am praying this is the right thing for me.

I wanted to thank all of you who have replied with the advice and encouragement. It means a lot to know I have such wonderful friends and family to back me up even in my insanity... thank you.

A thought...

I never seem to have anything good to write about but I do have something on my mind today. I recently got called as the Assistant Secratary in the Relief Society in my ward. Through this calling comes responsibility and a feeling like I need to become closer to the Lord so I can have a little more insight on what is going on in my ward. It took 8 months for me to get a calling in this ward and I am only going to be here for a couple more months. Why is it that when something seems to be going right in my life I have to leave it? It happened in Idaho when I moved away from two of my best friends. Wonderful people who loved me and who were genuine in their friendship. People who have put up with me, liked me for who I am and who were always there for me. I still have yet to make a friend here that I feel I can rely on. I am grateful that I have my sisters, I love them and would do anything for them. I know they love me and I treasure their friendship so very much, but I cannot be with them all the time cause they have kids and are busy themselves.
I hate feeling alone and getting back to my point before, this calling has helped me realize that I am never alone. I have people in my ward that I can talk to and wonderful visiting teachers who care for me. I just need to rely on my Heavenly Father, more frequently and more intently so I never feel alone again. I sit at home alone at night while Spencer is working, and some nights I can't help but feel sorry for myself. Starting today, I am going to make an effort to feel loved and to feel like I have a constant companion, because I do, I just have to welcome Him in.

Babysitting makes me smile

My sister and her family went to Colorado for a Family Reunion at the beginning of July and Spencer and I got to house sit/care for her puppies. It was a lot of work cause it felt like I was constantly cleaning up messes and taking them in and out teaching them to go to the bathroom outside. However I fell in love with 5 little loving pups and soon they will all go to their new homes. I have enclosed pictures just so you can see how cute they really are!

Saturday I got to watch my sister's kids and it was fun. We went swimming and then they watched movies till their parents came to get them. They had a lot of fun. Kaitlynn and Braxton went to the 8 foot water all by themselves and they were very proud of themselves... Ema and the baby were a little more reserved than the bigger kids but they got in the pool and loved it too. I love spending time with them, I feel my nieces and nephews are my purpose in life right now cause I haven't been able to have my own kids, I am grateful for the time I get to spend with these kiddos.

New Years Resolution.... HA what was I thinking?

OK so if anyone feels stupid, it is me, I thought I could set some new goals for this year and I might have been able to with a little more motivation. Something I do not have. Well the last time I wrote was in February and I thought that maybe I should try getting started again... Maybe I will get motivated to do things if I have something to do. Well forget I ever set any goals for this year cause it ain't happening.
Let's see, since February, not much has happened... Spencer has been taking a break from school so we have both just been working. It seems really tedious doing the same thing all day everyday, but in all actuality that is what I do. The same thing every day. Spencer and I are still working for Nuskin, I hate it cause the phones are driving mad, but Spencer doesn't mind it too badly yet. I have been working on phones off and on for 6 years so I have had enough but apparently I am not good enough to get a better job withing the company so I have spread my wings and started to look for another job. I don't know where I want to work but I know I want off the phones as soon as possible.
Spencer and I went to Colorado for a weekend. We took my niece Kaitlynn and that was fun. Too Short, but that was expected. 2 of my sister in laws Kristi and Chrissy are going to have babies within the next six months, along with my best friend Skye. All the babies are going to be girls. I am so happy for all of them, and cannot wait to meet each and every one of those precious babes.