So we moved to Utah to get a new start and we aren't starting anything. After another hard semester for Spencer I am starting to lose hope that we are going to move anywhere. Do I go back to school? Or do I just sit around and wait to see what the future has to hold for me? We are going to try again next semester to see if we make it any farther. Spencer decided to take a different road and that road is music instead of geology. I hope that this is the road for Spencer even though I am not sure what he plans to do with music. He is a great singer, and a good actor, but I think it will be interesting to see where the road ahead leads us.
We are still working at Nuskin and it is great. It is still pretty busy but the fear of losing our jobs is always at the back at my head. I am going to start looking for a night time job soon but fear that it is too late. Places aren't hiring and I am limited since we only have one car and Spencer works nights too. Oh well, I will live life as it comes at me there is nothing else I can do.
I was talking to a couple of women today at work and they disclosed to me some very personal stuff that made me think about life and how good I have it. Yeah we are poor and in debt and aren't able to get pregnant and not close enough to family, but really we are so blessed in many other ways. I would love to live next door to my sister, grandma, sister in law, parents, in laws but I can't. I would love to be able to pay off all the debt I have but can't. Yet that doesn't matter. I have a phone and am able to call all of my family and love e-mailing (when I have time), I cannot pay off my debt all at once, but I have a job and am able to make payments unlike people who have it harder than me. These two women, one dealing with break ins at her home and in her car, and the other dealing with a husband who has kidney stones so large that he needs surgery and it is a risky surgery that could cause him to lose his life or his kidney, her daughter fighting Brain tumors and another daughter trying to keep hearing through the one ear she can hear out of. All of these health problems because of the uranium in the soil in her Ohio town. She spend years growing and canning her own food organically and turns out she was growing in radiated soil.
I realize I have so much to be grateful for: a wonderful religion with great leaders, a loving husband, fabulous family, great friends, and a sweet adorable puppy. Even though I don't have all that I want, I have what the Lord sees fit for me. He knows me and he knows what I am capable of. He will give me what I need as I need it and as He sees fit which is the way it should be "Not my will but yours be done." We should all be grateful for what we have and find happiness in what we are blessed with daily and what is in our lives. I hope you all have a great day and that all is well in your lives.
We are still working at Nuskin and it is great. It is still pretty busy but the fear of losing our jobs is always at the back at my head. I am going to start looking for a night time job soon but fear that it is too late. Places aren't hiring and I am limited since we only have one car and Spencer works nights too. Oh well, I will live life as it comes at me there is nothing else I can do.
I was talking to a couple of women today at work and they disclosed to me some very personal stuff that made me think about life and how good I have it. Yeah we are poor and in debt and aren't able to get pregnant and not close enough to family, but really we are so blessed in many other ways. I would love to live next door to my sister, grandma, sister in law, parents, in laws but I can't. I would love to be able to pay off all the debt I have but can't. Yet that doesn't matter. I have a phone and am able to call all of my family and love e-mailing (when I have time), I cannot pay off my debt all at once, but I have a job and am able to make payments unlike people who have it harder than me. These two women, one dealing with break ins at her home and in her car, and the other dealing with a husband who has kidney stones so large that he needs surgery and it is a risky surgery that could cause him to lose his life or his kidney, her daughter fighting Brain tumors and another daughter trying to keep hearing through the one ear she can hear out of. All of these health problems because of the uranium in the soil in her Ohio town. She spend years growing and canning her own food organically and turns out she was growing in radiated soil.
I realize I have so much to be grateful for: a wonderful religion with great leaders, a loving husband, fabulous family, great friends, and a sweet adorable puppy. Even though I don't have all that I want, I have what the Lord sees fit for me. He knows me and he knows what I am capable of. He will give me what I need as I need it and as He sees fit which is the way it should be "Not my will but yours be done." We should all be grateful for what we have and find happiness in what we are blessed with daily and what is in our lives. I hope you all have a great day and that all is well in your lives.
