Our little apartment

I talked to my good friend Skye yesterday from Blackfoot, Idaho and she told me that I needed to post pictures of my apartment so I decided to do what I was told and post some. I don't have a great camera, so I did the best I could but it gives you a general idea on how no matter how small the place, you can always make it a bit of home.

Well, it is still messy, but it is a work in progress and probably will be until I move next year. Yea! Still no jobs are lined up for me and Spencer, but at least I am still looking and I have an interview to possibly be a manager cashier for McDonalds. I know, not my ideal job but it would finally be an income if I get the job. I am not too optimistic though because I have interviewed three other places and nothing has come of it. I am a little bit frustrated by that. We are still eating and we have great family nearby to help us and they are so gracious to let us do our laundry there it saves a lot of money So thank you my wonderful sisters.

Our neighbors/friends Zach and Becca (they live two apts down) are moving so we will be down to not knowing anybody where we live again. We are not sure if we like the family ward we are in cause there is not a lot of potential of us making good friends there cause we are surrounded by wonderful older people. We are flirting with the idea of trying out the married student ward which would give me a little more motivation to get involved even though I feel out of place there too. I am not sure what is wrong with me, but it hurts to see so many young couples who have been married less time than me with a child or who are pregnant when that is all I have wanted for almost three years now. I get frustrated at how the Lord works and not knowing what his plan has in store for me. Yet I know he does have a plan for me and that he knows what is best for me. I need to become better so I can be worthy of bearing one of His precious children. I love being an aunt more than ever though, and in the meantime and I am very grateful I have that much.
Well, I wrote a novel and left you again to wonder what is wrong with me. I swear I am a happy person, I just don't have a lot of happy things to write about right now. I promise I will become my normal self when I am less stressed and I can see light at the end of the tunnel. I love and miss you all. I am glad for what family I do have near, but sad I am so far away from all you others I am so far away from.

God Bless and I pray you will all have the things you need to get through the hard times ahead.

Whoa is me!!

Well, we finally got a car! it is a 98 Buick Regal and it is actually a pretty good car so far. We bought it a while ago and I have been really slow at making a new blog post so I am sorry for the delay. I have been really unmotivated lately cause I still do not have a job. I feel worthless and even scared at times that we made the wrong choice in moving to Utah right now. Spencer is looking into joining the air Force a lot earlier than planned because even he cannot find a job. This is crazy stuff. We are in Provo, a huge town for crying out loud where is the sense in that. Anyways, our new car is Hunter Green and it works well. It is a really heavy car so I am a little bit worried about the hill I live on when it snows, cause it makes us go really fast down the hill no matter what drive we are in. IT IS A STEEP HILL. We are almost completely unpacked, I still have a few things I do not have space for so they are just laying around my house and are in the way Boo. I will find them a place soon though, I hope.

So Spencer's cousin is getting married tomorrow and his sister, (my great friend) Kristi is making her cake and I had the priveledge to go to her house and help her with her boys and experience cake making hands on, it was really fun and interesting. She does a really good job and I am really excited to see the final out outcome. Well, I need to go to the store so I am going to log off now, but thanks for reading and for your continued support to me and Spencer. Also, thanks for your prayers.